One year ago today I went in for my brain surgery. That was a horrible day and the start to some horrible weeks. I did not want to go through with the surgery, I was so angry that I decided to do the MRI and found out about the tumor. That terrible and scarey morning a year ago while driving to the hospital all I wanted to do was run away and not go through with it. But, I did go through with it. I knew it had to be done and I'm so so glad I did it and got it over with. Today I am doing amazing!! Things have gone good this past year. I refuse to let my dizziness and lack of balance stop me from doing the things I love. I was able to rockclimb, I rode all the rollercosters at Lagoon and only got a little sick :) and I went on lots of hikes with a heavy kid on my back. Although it is difficult to walk on such uneven ground and I have to really concentrate on where I step, I could still do it and have fun. I was able to go canyoneering and things went really good!!! We did two difficult canyons it was harder than normal but I was able to get through and have fun doing it. I haven't tried skiing yet, I'm nervous because it makes me so dizzy just to shovel snow, it is very disorienting to be surrounded by all white. I am anxious to try it.
I have healed as much as I think I will from this surgery. Notice my very even smile in the pictures above and my non droopy face :) I am learning to deal with being deaf, I find I don't like being in groups anymore, it is just too hard to hear. Often I would rather stay home than go to a party, but I am forcing myself to be social. I haven't had any taste return and I don't think it ever will. The ringing in my ear will stay forever, it doesn't bother me too much anymore.
I am so grateful to be a year past this, I am so thankful to be able to be home being a mom to my kids. Thank you to everyone who helped me and my family get through this. Everything that everyone did for us meant so much to us. Thank you
